Tears from my Heart
That’s the name of the book I feel God wants me to write. To share my story. To literally share God’s goodness.
Sometimes I feel I’ve cried literally the maximum tears anyone can cry. Like I’ve reached my lifetime limit already.
Psalm 56:8 You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.
Fascinating…I just made the connection to this verse.
God has a book of tears from my heart.
His book is in heaven, and mine will be here.
I’m not fully sure how to write a book…however I am sure if God wants this for me He will equip me. And I believe He does want this for me.
Where do I start? I think I should start with chapters and some sense of an outline.
That’s good news, because I love outlines. Outlines are plans. And I love plans. They are quite as good as numbers though (insert smile here).
Also good news, I have a friend that I have talked with chapter names with for many years now. God can bring them back to my memory. I was trying to keep track of them, but I cannot find them anymore. Which is kinda odd now that I am writing about it. I rarely lose things…can’t say never because well…we have example right here (insert sad face here).
Fascinating…I just made another connection.
That’s two paragraphs in a row starting with good news. I definitely did not plan that. But my last entry was literally “good news…is coming for me!”…hmmmmm
I do not believe that is a coincidence. And the reason I know that is because there are no coincidences. That’s actually an old entry of mine - “What are the odds? (zero) That can’t be a coincidence? (it isn’t)”. Makes me want to read it. But I won’t - at least not until I’ve finished this one. I don’t want it to mess with my thoughts as I write now.
What’s fascinating to me is I believe it. I believe this is the “good news coming” that I wrote about a few days ago. When I wrote that, I was not thinking this was it. I was hoping for something else. But God knew that something else wasn’t good for me, even though I wanted it…very very very badly.
Fascinating…I just made another connection.
If I am trusting in God and happy He didn’t give me what I wanted very very very badly that He knew wasn’t good for me…
What if we reverse it? Wouldn’t that be true as well?
That I can trust God that if He wants something I do not want very very very badly, then it would be because He knows it’s good for me.
So the answer it YES. Yes if God gives me something I do not want, it would be for my good.
Is anyone else noticing all the “good news” mentioned in this entry? Kinda fascinating….I mean we are in the week of the Good News above all good news that could ever happen in history.
The Good News of Jesus Christ.
My good news could never compare to that, however I still think it’s fascinating God’s timing for things.
Here’s another connection. Not sure if this counts as fascinating (insert sad face here), but I’d put it as interesting at the very least.
Since I just compared the good news on earth to the Good News of Jesus Christ.
What if I compare books?
God’s book in heaven that my tears are in compared to my earthly book of tears - Tears from my Heart. God’s book would be superior of course, but I still find it interesting that things just keep seem to be connecting in this entry. I didn’t plan it that way, and that is very interesting as well.
Speaking of plans…God’s plans. My plans just changed. What I thought was happening this week - nope it’s not. So I figured I would write instead. Is that a coincidence?
You know my answer.
God’s plan to get me writing. It’s happening. God’s plans prevail. God prevails.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
FASCINATING. You know why? Because in my entry about my “good news”, it was hope that I had in my heart. I believed in and hoped for God to make it happen for me.
I believe He has…just not in the way I had planned.
So we are back to plans and good without even trying. And we just covered hope.
Next up is my future…
So here it is.
Blog entry One Hundred Thirty Six
Follow God and Write from your Heart,
Kendra
P.S. Bonus interesting connection. Perhaps even fascinating…you decide (insert smile here). It was last April when I published Part One of my testimony…just sayin…
P.S.S. It was also April of last year when I published the entry “Let’s do this” which was about my calling to write my story and God giving me the desire of my heart which is to write…just saying…(I did go back and read it and figured that was ok because this is technically past the entry in the P.S.S. parts and won’t mess anything up - that’s good news)
P.S.S.S. Wanna know one more thing that’s FASCINATING - speaking of the God giving me the desires of my heart…my very first entry…that’s the Bible verse I chose for God calling me write Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the LORD,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Just sayin….”What are the odds? (zero) That can’t be a coincidence? (it isn’t)”