What’s next - Ditto edition
Hmmmmm
I was thinking of writing this morning and “What’s next” came to my mind…that sounded familiar tho.
Wait??? Don’t I already have an entry named What’s next?
Oh I most certainly do. Ok, well maybe I should read it.
Honestly, I am really not sure what to say. I can say I don’t think what I’m about to share makes me look super together. However, the entire blog is about my journey with God and I can assure you I am not super together. And you will agree once you read this entry..
Why?
Well…because I am LITERALLY going to post my last entry with this title and it is the EXACT SAME as now.
I’m starting a new chapter in my life. Moving near Disney World. And new things are coming!
However, I did not expect my last entry on this topic to apply EXACTLY the SAME as last year. But it does!
Word for word.
Except one.
A very SIGNIFICANT one indeed.
{HINT: You’ll see it at the end}
Here’s my entry literally copied as is from around this time last year…
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Well, it depends on what the question is referring to. Admittedly, I do not know what is next for mostly anything at the moment. I’m searching for God’s direction. I’ve beensearching for God’s direction.
Psalm 37:23 The LORD directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives.
That is WONDERFUL, thank you God!
I’m so grateful to have you delighting in every detail of my life! But wait…what if I feel I’ve been searching for direction but do not know what’s next?
Psalm 37:24 Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the LORD holds them by the hand.
That is WONDERFUL, thank you God!
I most definitely do not want to fall!…However, what is involved in stumbling? That does not sound too pleasant. That sounds scary even. Not as scary as falling, but definitely seems like it would not be a good experience.
Honestly, I feel like that’s where I am. I don’t know God’s direction and I do feel I’m stumbling. I’ve made a lot of changes recently, and some of them are not going too well. Did I make them on my own and go against God? I certainly did not intend to go against God…mostly…
I’m thinking mostly isn’t good enough.
Now what do I do?
Repent and ask God help me in the areas I’m struggling in.
Acts 8:22 Repent, therefore, of this wickedness of yours, and pray to the Lord that, if possible, the intent of your heart may be forgiven you.
Yes, thank you God.
Getting back to what’s next…what is it that I am supposed to be doing until I hear from God more clearly?
Interestingly, this sorta reminds me of my first entry. Failure - God’s will for me.
Yes, I have gone back and re-read a few of them in the “catching up” postings lately (insert smile here).
So have we come full circle? It seems we have, because this is “mostly” what I wrote about in my first entry. So the answer to the question…what’s next? is…
Wait. Wait for God.
Honestly, I feel I could re-post my first entry here and we’d be all “caught up” to where I am now. That’s not really a good feeling. Surely God has helped me grow and given me direction in the past year. And Yes, I know He has. And I Praise God for it! Thank you God!
But…I still feel we are “mostly” back to the beginning again…
Let me look back at my first entry and see what I said I would do a year ago when I felt like this. If it made sense then, then logic would say it would make sense now (insert smile here).
Wow, I’m sorta shocked. I almost can’t believe how “mostly” so similar it feels to to where I am right now. I had no intention of putting my first entry into this one. But, it is so on point I feel I must add one part of it here.
Like how in the world a year later could “mostly” the same situation apply?
{So here I am…waiting…on God's plans now. Ok…I can accept waiting. When is the waiting over with, God? When do I get started? What do I do while I wait? Certainly You don't want me to just do nothing, God? There must be a list. What is it, God? God, now what do I do? I can’t just do nothing right, God? So now I’m failing at even knowing God's will for me and what he wants me doing. Surely I can’t tell people I’m doing nothing, God…however there are some things I do know. I know the commands that are in Your Word. I know You want me to tell others about You. I do know You want me to bring glory to You, God. But, God, how am I going to achieve this by doing nothing? Although, I must acknowledge God, I do feel a prompting to write. Why would this be, God?…You know I don’t like writing, You know I’m not good at writing, You know I have no talent of any kind in writing, and You know I’ve always felt this way, God.
So, therefore…No, God.
No, I don't feel this is a good plan for me. I don’t really like this plan for me, God. And, God…what am I even going to write about? To start, I can write about…failing at my plan “in the world”.}
Ummmm…hello…you can’t make this stuff up…I mean right? It’s the “mostly” the same thing! However, there is one MASSIVE difference.
Writing!
That’s the difference. That’s where the “mostly” ends. It not only ends, it takes a total new direction.
I love writing. It brings JOY to my heart. There is almost nothing I’d rather do than write. Writing has taken a hold of my heart.
But look at what I thought about writing last year…loathed the idea. Was not a fan. Didn’t want to do it. Nope, not for me. No God, this is not a good plan for me.
And now, a TOTAL turnaround. Not “mostly”, but a TOTAL turnaround. God must know me better than I know myself…
Ephesians 2:10 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
John 15:16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you.
It has been made clear to me. Crystal clear. It couldn’t be more clear.
Writing.
Praise you God!, and please help me always remember this.
So perhaps I should change the title of this entry?
What’s next? Writing.
So here it is.
Blog entry Forty-Three
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Until next time…
Blog entry One Hundred Seven}
Follow God and Bake from your Heart,
Ellie
{NOTE: I just HAVE to keep Ellie there}