When am I going to write my book?
I don’t know…
Honestly, I feel like I’m avoiding it. Not a good sign.
I’m great at avoiding. Sadly, sometimes I even avoid God.
Avoid. Avoid. Avoid.
Much much easier than…
Begin. Begin. Begin.
I don’t want to begin. Beginning feels very difficult. Beginning is overwhelming.
I have never written a book. I don’t even like reading books.
Interestingly enough, recently I decided to read the books I loved from my childhood. Is this a coincidence? I mean it’s pretty fascinating timing I must say. But the answer is No, coincidences do not exist.
The idea started at my Bible study group when one of the women brought in a bunch of books she wanted to get rid of. And there it was! Charlotte’s Web!
Just seeing the cover made me happy. I hesitated a moment, but then thought Yes. Yes this will be fun! I mean why not? There it is and it’s calling my name (insert smile here).
I loved this book as a child. One of my favorites. I started reading it and remembered all the happiness inside the pages. There’s also sadness, but that doesn’t take away from the beautiful story it is.
Wait.
Am I really thinking about Charolette’s Web? Or is God putting something on my heart?
The answer is quite clear. Crystal clear.
God is saying to me…
”Kendra, write your story”
I’m saying…
“I don’t know how.”
“I don’t know where to start.”
“I don’t like this idea anymore.”
“I don’t want to.”
“It’s too hard.”
“I’m scared to.”
“No.”
“But God, I want to obey you.”
“And God, I know you’ve called me to write it.”
God is saying to me…
”Kendra, I am with you”
“Kendra, I love you”
Matthew 16:23-25 Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns.” Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.
Isaiah 45:3 I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the LORD, the God of Israel, who summons you by name.
John 10:27 My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.
For many years now, I have heard God’s very simple instructions in what He wants me to do…
“Kendra, I just want you to listen”
I’m at the point in my life where I must obey. I cannot risk not obeying. And I love God, and I do want to obey Him…mostly…
And that is where the s
t
u
m
bling block comes in.
Mostly.
Mostly won’t work. Mostly is NO. Mostly is not my calling. Mostly is not obeying.
Mostly must end.
So now what do I do?
Simple.
Get started.
Let God help me.
Believe God that it’s His calling for me and therefore He makes promises He must keep.
He has to keep them to me.
Why?
Because…
I am a child of God.
Psalm 37:23-24 The LORD directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the LORD holds them by the hand.
So perhaps I should change the title of this entry.
I am starting to write my book.
So here it is.
Follow God and Write from your Heart,
Kendra
{P.S. ~ I will be publishing my book on Substack. Come join the community!}
{P.S.S. ~ I finished Charolette’s Web and Im now reading Call of the Wild}